Sometimes I wish that,
I could actually follow through,
That I could actually do it,
Actually,
For once,
Do it,
Instead of just,
Trying,
And opening my eyes,
To some sad excuse,
Instead of having water,
Swishing inside my lungs,
Instead of having the blood,
Dried to my clothes,
To the floor,
Instead of having my throat,
Sore,
From all the vomiting,
Open my eyes,
To some being,
Greater then I.
Instead of hiding everything,
Show everyone,
Tell everyone,
And then,
Say goodbye,
For the last time,
For good,
