untitled poem

Just A poem,
From some,
wanna be poet,
who will never amount to anything.

It's not that I wanna die
It's just that I dont wanna live
Cuz I'm so scared of livin
And I'm even more scared of dying
But I will still put a slash on both of these god damn wrists
And I'll cut my thighs just hopin to die
And I'll let the tears pour from my eyes
As I slip under this water
And put this gun in my mouth
And take all these pills, and all this alcohol
Just hopin for the good old sleep.

I'm sick of livin
I'm sick of breathin
I don't wanna be dragged through another day
Don't wanna survive another night
Don't wanna wake up another morning and know, that I feel all alone

See, I hate the night time
Cuz It's just the end of another day I've lived through
And I hate the morning
Cuz it's just another start of another day
And another reminder of another night
And another morning

But I love sleep.
Cuz it's the sister of death

So Lord, take my life
Or I'll take it myself
And you know I will
Cuz I've already tried too many god damn times
And one day it'll work
But.. I'm not sure if I want it to...
So lord, please take it first....